There has been quite an adjustment around here since Kindergarten started. First of all, on a normal week, I used to drive to post 7-8 times a week. This was to take Ashlyn to hourly care, back to pick her up, and other activities. Now, for an average week I will be driving to post 3-5 times a week. So, saving money on gas. More time at home. I can get more done around the house, not only because I am home more, but because Ashlyn isn't here. Christopher still takes a morning nap, and just requires less of my attention.
At the same time, Ashlyn is so busy and so tired. CRANKY. Oh, and Christopher is teething, so we're not sleeping all night. I'm tired, too. So, I'm not handling it well. There has been a lot of yelling in our house this past week or so (from both of us.) There has also been a lot of hitting and kicking (from Ashlyn.) By the time both of them have made it to bed at night, I have been totally worn out and spent the night thinking about how much better I should have handled Ashlyn's outbursts. Poor girl. I'm trying to remind myself that she is in a new environment every morning, when she is used to spending more time at home. But, by the time that she has screamed at everyone all afternoon, pulled the cat, kicked the dog, hit me a few times, and hit or kicked her brother for the 4th time that day, I'm done! We've spent a good part of each day with Ashlyn asking me if I'm happy. (We talk about our feelings a lot around here.) I tend to tell her that I am either mad, frustrated, or sad. She sniffs a bit and tells me that she's not happy, either.
Last Friday was the worst. She was horribly cranky from the time she woke up. She had obviously been crying when she arrived at school. One of her teachers was so surprised because she said that Ashlyn smiles the entire time that she is at school (of course she saves this for me!) She started crying and griping at me the moment I picked her up and it continued the rest of the day. She sat in time out, screaming, in front of the commissary. I alternated between wanting to take her out of school for a few days a week and wanting her to stay there until bed time.
Today was a better day. During Christopher's nap, Ashlyn watched a little bit of Dora. We read several books and put together puzzles. She got more individual attention from me, and I think that helped. She still ended up yelling at Christopher and Ranger, but it was short lived and I managed to put her in time out without yelling, too. Allen also made it home just before dinner and played with both kids while I was finishing up dinner. Ashlyn really misses her daddy when he is working a lot.
I hope that keeping our afternoons calm for her will help. I will try to save any cleaning or computer work for mornings so that I can give her the extra attention. I hope that things will work out, and she will adjust to spending the morning in school. Right now I'm just exhausted.