Before Christopher was born, I admit I was worried about how life was going to change. Ashlyn is at an age that I really enjoy. We can have conversations, play games, just do stuff together. She has a pretty sweet personality, and I like my girl. Every time I thought of the baby, I thought about all of the work involved. And the lack of sleep. And the constant nursing. It wasn't that I didn't enjoy Ashlyn as an infant. I loved that time. She was the only one I had to take care of, though. And, I've enjoyed some of her new independence as well.
But, I really just forgot. Yeah, I'm not sleeping. And, I swear Christopher thinks that he should just be permanently attached to me. And, I lose track of how many diapers are changed in a day. That's all ok. I forgot that the work isn't that big of a deal, most of the time. I want to do all of this. He's my little guy, and I'm loving him a little more each day.
I'm feeling much calmer than I was at this point with Ashlyn. I blame this in part on being my second child. The first survived me. And, the biggest reason: Allen is not about to deploy for a year. Knowing that a second parent will be available most of the time helps.
Of course, right now, Allen is at home. And, my parents are here. So, really all I have to do is take care of Christopher. At some point, I'm going to be home alone and expected to do all of those things that 4 adults are currently sharing. And, at some point, Christopher is going to start causing more problems. Ashlyn is going to hit a new stage that will make me crazy. But, I'm feeling pretty calm about all of this right now. I have more help coming. I won't be doing it alone for awhile. By then, I'll be feeling better. The house may not be cleaned as often. Laundry may get behind. We'll figure it out. For now, life is good.
(I added more pictures on Flickr, too.)